I’ve toyed with the idea of shutting down Lost Girl for quite a while now. After recent conversations, I’ve finally decided to “pull the plug” on this blog. But before I go, I have a few comments to leave for those who read me …
For those of you have read me, comments, challenged me and helped me grow, thank you! I absolutely love the blogging community, and have learned, grown and thought more since I joined than probably any other time in my life. Many of you haven’t agreed with things I’ve said, and people who know me “in the real world,” who have been brave enough and have loved me enough to step up and talk to me face to face are awesome! I’ve never shyed from a confrontation, never been afraid to say I was wrong if I really was, and am quick to apologize when I do something that is truely stupid. So, for those souls who have read, and challenged face to face, THANKS!
For those of you who are my friends … your encouragement and comments are what keep me going. I’ve always written … but to actually write in an atmosphere where I can get feedback, and continue the path to perfecting my style and voice … I love you guys! It’s sad that some of you I will never stand face to face with have been more encouraging and loving than people who say they love me and yet cannot overlook their own agenda or their own fractured beliefs.
BTW, I’ll be blogging somewhere else. But I’d ask, if you’re my friends, not to link my new blog to yours. I’ll be contacting you all about the address, when it’s up and going.
I’ve found out that for some sick reason, there are people in my real life that apparently get off on seeing what I say, then going behind my back to talk to other people about me. It’s called gossip, it runs rampant in “the structure” because for some reason a lot of people there just talk about new life and can’t give control over to the God they say they believe in. (please note: If you’re someone who has come to me, please understand this rant has nothing to do with you! This is for the “nameless” — or so they think — people who have a perverted idea of love and their faith).
They decide it’s their “moral” duty or whatever to keep everyone under control and believing exactly what they do. They talk a good game … they even put in their time “volunteering” and their dollars in the plate. But for them, it’s their “admission” to a club where they can be accepted regardless (to their face) but can really live lives that aren’t any different on the inside. They make huge assumptions (kind of what I’m doing here — but at least I have solid reasons), and they begin “fixing” things so that their life isn’t disrupted and their faith isn’t challenged. They crazily think people in their world aren’t doing the same thing to them. Wow. I wish they would read the book they say they pattern their lives after. It breaks my heart.
Finally, for those of you who fell into the last catagory … congratulations. There will be one less voice in the blogging community calling you to think about what you’re doing. At least, as far as you know. See, the beauty of this medium is that I may (or may not) be out here doing exactly the same thing. Challenging, calling to truth … and now, I’ve removed the element of perceived control you have over me, you’ll never know if it’s me or not. Everytime you come across a blog, you’ll be able to wonder –“hmmmm, is that her?” But now, you’ll never know.
I have been awakened to the truth of how many of you “Christians” really don’t care about me, my family, or anyone you perceive as “different.” How many only remember the passages of the Bible that agree with what they already believe. I read a quote yesterday from someone that said, “The question shouldn’t be what I understand about the Bible. The question should be, what will I obey?” Knowledge and obedience are NOT the same thing, my friends. And I’m not really sorry if the things I’ve said have caused you to reexamine yourself. But I am sad that you somehow can’t see past your own religious arrogance to maybe, just maybe, start living what you say you believe.
So, see you later! As of this post, there will be no more on Lost Girl. I’m not shutting down as of yet (I have to retrieve some of the articles to post in other places). But there will be no new information here. Thanks for the ride! Hopefully, this last post will help some of you reawaken to what “real” love and concern is. But, I seriously doubt it … apparently, God can do anything except change an unwilling heart.